Gratitude and un-Gratitude: August

You know those mornings when you wake up before the alarm, and the windows are still cloaked in cool nighttime colors? This is one of those mornings. Yesterday was almost one--I woke up before my alarm, but then I succumbed to exhaustion and closed my eyes again. That's the fatal mistake. It sets you up … Continue reading Gratitude and un-Gratitude: August

On Having a Boy

From the time I was sixteen, I pictured having a daughter. Somehow it had never occurred to me that I might have a boy--it just didn’t seem like an option. Boys were for people who had brothers growing up. I have a sister. When I used to ask my mom whether she’d wanted girls or … Continue reading On Having a Boy

On Minor Miracles

I’m sitting at our old wooden table right now. There are wine stains on it, and flour has been permanently scoured into its surface. The cats use its legs as scratching posts. This table had a generic start: in an Ikea store in Minneapolis, but over the years it has collected memories. I kneaded my … Continue reading On Minor Miracles

On Luck and Loss

Right now I’m sitting on the couch with the window flung wide open, listening to the symphony of frogs that has congregated outside. It’s been unseasonably wet and warm. In the span of a week, we went from frozen soil and brown, withered plants to green unfurling everywhere. And best of all are the spring … Continue reading On Luck and Loss

On Change

  Spring is wrapping up here in Mississippi. Now when I step onto the deck each morning with Chara, the air is as warm and soft as a second skin. The brilliant spring blooms have faded, and the garden is well established. And with these changes come other big life changes. About three weeks ago … Continue reading On Change

On Moodiness

Yesterday, Jordan and I got into a fight. I'm sharing this because it's an important reality of our relationship. We aren't perfect. We are messy, we are human. But it's easy to come off as perfect when you write pieces about the beautiful little moments together. The fight started with me, before even I could have guessed … Continue reading On Moodiness

On wanting what you have

Here in Mississippi, spring is on its way. The air is balmy and warm, birds flitter around our feeder, and Chara's fur gathers in tumbleweeds in the corners of our home. These changes, along with talk of New Year's resolutions, always turn my thoughts to the future. What's the outcome I see for myself? What … Continue reading On wanting what you have

On Crying Babies at Weddings

So last weekend Jordan and I got married. And it was amazing and perfect and better than I ever could've imagined. But, a baby cried during our ceremony. Curious about whether there was any folklore around crying babies at weddings (and suspecting the Google gods would tell me it signified fertility or some such), I … Continue reading On Crying Babies at Weddings

A Photoessay on Life with Each Other

With a wedding on the horizon, Jordan and I have spent a lot of time discussing how we go through life together and how we'd like to do it better. One of the main things we talked about was that when we spend too much time together, we start to forget that there are two … Continue reading A Photoessay on Life with Each Other

On the difficulties of being alive and knowing people

Disclaimer: I'm no expert on this. I'm just thinking in type, and my thoughts represent the narrow world view of a short, curly haired girl who likes dogs and doesn't like (I can't think of anything I don't like right now) erm, licorice. Relationships are hard. And I don't mean just romantic ones. All relationships are … Continue reading On the difficulties of being alive and knowing people