I am sad. It pours out of me in gasps and chokes, a geyser of emotion too strong to stopper up. Each year it lies in wait. Quiet, tame. Masked by boredom with the details, the mundanity of every day life. And then, as his tires crunch gravel outside the window, and the door closes solidly … Continue reading On Goodbyes
Tag: reflections
The Merits of Being Alone
Alone. It's a weighty concept, one packed with loneliness and independence and freedom. It means handling problems that arise all by yourself. Bearing life's weight on your own back. But with that independence comes freedom from another person's opinions and needs. It means living your life exactly the way you want to live it, unrestrained … Continue reading The Merits of Being Alone
On Change
Spring is wrapping up here in Mississippi. Now when I step onto the deck each morning with Chara, the air is as warm and soft as a second skin. The brilliant spring blooms have faded, and the garden is well established. And with these changes come other big life changes. About three weeks ago … Continue reading On Change
On Money Matters
Talking about money can be awkward. But I think it's important too, so I'm just going to dive right into it: Jordan and I are poor. He's a graduate student with a meager stipend, and I work for a non-profit. In the last few months, we've had a huge shift in how we think about … Continue reading On Money Matters
On Moodiness
Yesterday, Jordan and I got into a fight. I'm sharing this because it's an important reality of our relationship. We aren't perfect. We are messy, we are human. But it's easy to come off as perfect when you write pieces about the beautiful little moments together. The fight started with me, before even I could have guessed … Continue reading On Moodiness
On wanting what you have
Here in Mississippi, spring is on its way. The air is balmy and warm, birds flitter around our feeder, and Chara's fur gathers in tumbleweeds in the corners of our home. These changes, along with talk of New Year's resolutions, always turn my thoughts to the future. What's the outcome I see for myself? What … Continue reading On wanting what you have
On Crying Babies at Weddings
So last weekend Jordan and I got married. And it was amazing and perfect and better than I ever could've imagined. But, a baby cried during our ceremony. Curious about whether there was any folklore around crying babies at weddings (and suspecting the Google gods would tell me it signified fertility or some such), I … Continue reading On Crying Babies at Weddings
On Finding the Bright Spots
I'm going to start off with my usual spiel: I'm not a psychologist, or a life-coach, or any other such thing. I'm just a 24 year old girl who thinks a lot and writes to connect with other people. Everything below is my humble opinion, and it is not meant to tell you how to … Continue reading On Finding the Bright Spots
On the difficulties of being alive and knowing people
Disclaimer: I'm no expert on this. I'm just thinking in type, and my thoughts represent the narrow world view of a short, curly haired girl who likes dogs and doesn't like (I can't think of anything I don't like right now) erm, licorice. Relationships are hard. And I don't mean just romantic ones. All relationships are … Continue reading On the difficulties of being alive and knowing people
The nature of nature
I recently participated in a contest on Instagram--meant to raise money for the super cool Conservation Canines group, which uses rescue dogs to conduct research (click the link to learn more!). The prompt of the contest was simple, and it's a common theme for contests all throughout the dog-obsessed world of Instagram: Post a picture of … Continue reading The nature of nature